been a while since i posted… a lot happening, mostly not good stuff so didn’t really wanna pen anything down.
to start with, a couple of days ago, i got back home in the evening from work and as usual went to check my mail and that’s where my car is parked. i noticed the passenger window open in my car… a little confused, i walked towards the car to check it out… and i realised someone had smashed open the passenger window wide open… with all glass pieces shattered in the car… it was a terrible sight :-(
i was so taken aback, i didn’t even bother to check if anyone’s stolen anything from the car… i got home and called up the cops and filed a complain… naturally the first thing they asked me was if anything was stolen. i said i’d call them back after i check.
when i went down to check again, i figured that my mp3-cd player was stolen. honestly, i didn’t quite care… it was one of those moments where i absurdly thought to myself… why did they have to break my glass… they could have just asked me and i would have given it to them :-(
probably for the first time i experienced a feeling that i had never felt before, and therefore cannot put it in words. i felt like crying. i’ve never been “broken-into” and brutally (as i’d like to call it) robbed!
all of a sudden i felt extremely lonely, very disconnected from the whole world. i wanted to hear the words, “it’s ok, don’t worry, it’ll be allright”. i just wanted a comforting thought, someone who would just be there… and comfort me for a while.
i immediately picked up the phone and called mum… i just wanted to hear her thats all…
well that was that… the weekend passed and today i finally managed to take my car to a smash-repair shop to get my bumpers fixed and to get a pink slip (my rego expires tomorrow) with crossed fingers.
apparently, i’ve gotta get back to them tomorrow and hopefully (please god please), they will give me the pink slip (inspection check) tomorrow so i can run to the rta and get my rego. of course i still have to pay my green slip (ctp insurance) with aami which i’d probably do tonight.
such a small thing you’d think. but believe me, its because i went through this for the first time and i felt so lost.
i wonder how do people whose homes have been brutally robbed, cope with it! god bless them and give them the comfort they desire.
god, forgive me for any wrong i’ve done in my life :(
i often have wandered in deep contemplation ive always loved spring time, the passing of winter im just an old cowboy from high colorado i dream i left there whispering jesse still rides in the mountains
it seems that the mind runs wild when youre all alone
the way that it could be
the way that it should be
things id do differently if i could do them again
the green of the new leaves and life goin on
the promise of morning
the long days of summer
warm nights of loving her beneath the bright stars
too old to ride anymore, too blind to see
i sleep in the city now
away from the mountains
away from the cabin we always called home
on an old palomino
whispering jesse rode right by my side
i long to hold her
to hear her soft breathing
the touch of her cool hands on my fevered brow
still sings in the canyons
still lives in my heart
listen to this song here
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