Archive for April, 2004

hey ram

by Devesh on April 6, 2004 in Music with Comments Off

tu anteryami, sab ka swami
tere charano mein, chaaro dhaam

hey ram, hey ram

tuhi bigade, tuhi saware
is jag ke saare kaam

hey ram, hey ram

tuhi jag daata, vishva-vidhaata,
tuhi subah, tuhi shaam

hey ram, hey ram

jag mein sacho tero naam
hey ram, hey ram

 

these days from the moment i get up, i have to put this song on. it is sooo very soothing… and to top it, it’s by jagjit-ji. bas this song is like 22 mins or so, till then i have my shower and do the pooja in the morning… god this totally changes your days perspective.

anyways, me late for work now :- so gotta rush.

empty

by Devesh on April 5, 2004 in General with Comments Off

i don’t feel like doing anything. today has been such a depressing day and the rain is making it even sadder! my mind is so unstable right now. i don’t even know what i’m thinking. but then a while ago i had this thought, that this week, thursday will be the last working day as there’s the easter – long weekend coming up :- … kinda makes me feel better… but not completely… i feel like i’ve lost this part of me… some part of my existence just died or something… aargh! i’m so delusional!

undecisive

by Devesh on April 5, 2004 in General with Comments Off

i didn’t goto work today :-( just couldn’t be bothered to… felt the need to just take a day off and do nothing so badly… i’ve got so many things running on my head it’s not funny anymore.

i don’t know what i’m doing with me life. i cannot relate how i got myself in this situation, but as of this moment, i cannot see any way out… i’m feeling so unstable.

every splitting moment is like a double edged sword… stay here or go back. both have it’s consequences.

i’m dying for a miracle… just 1 miracle to wipe everything clean in my life and start back.

god! is anyone listening?

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