I never wanted to be this free

i was just going through all my posts since the last month, and i was surprised to see that to find a good one, a postive one, was just like as if searching for a needle in a haystack!

i want this misery to get over. everything is a blur. every day, every minute!

spoke to rits today. he’s so happy that he would soon be going for good back home :) infact, i felt so happy to know that he’s getting to do what he wants.

i wish i knew what i exactly want from life. i have no ambition, no goal, no prospect, which i find so funny, being a capricorn, this is actually a taboo!

a carpicorn trait is being ambitious, to be practical and yet at the same time to be sensitive. patient and careful, disciplined and prudent, humorous and reserved.

and believe me, that was what i was 3-4 years ago. today i’m a mirror image of all this! i’m just exactly the opposite!

read back all the traits above, and the precise atynoym you find to each, that’s what i am today. and i don’t like it! :cry:

i’ve been listening to def leppard since last night. i recently acquired the whole def leppard’s discography and these are the only song’s which i’ve selected to play continuously since last night (in the order):

1. Def Leppard – Blood Runs Cold (4:26)
2. Def Leppard – Breathe A Sigh (4:06)
3. Def Leppard – Bringin’ on the Heartbreak (4:33)
4. Def Leppard – Day After Day (4:36)
5. Def Leppard – Disintegrate (2:50)
6. Def Leppard – Fractured Love (5:12)
7. Def Leppard – From The Inside (4:15)
8. Def Leppard – Goodbye (3:36)
9. Def Leppard – Guilty (3:46)
10. Def Leppard – Kings Of Oblivion (4:18)
11. Def Leppard – Long Long Way To Go (4:40)
12. Def Leppard – Where Does Love Go When It Dies (4:05)
13. Def Leppard – Long Long Way To Go (accoustic) (4:43)
14. Def Leppard – Love Bites (5:46)
15. Def Leppard – Miss You In A Heartbeat (4:04)
16. Def Leppard – Miss You In A Heartbeat (electric Version) (4:55)
17. Def Leppard – Miss You in A Heartbeat (Piano Version) (4:09)
18. Def Leppard – Too Late for Love (4:27)
19. Def Leppard – Two Steps Behind (accoustic Version) (4:16)
20. Def Leppard – Two Steps Behind (Electric Version) (4:30)
21. Def Leppard – Where Does Love Go When It Dies (acoustic Version) (4:05)

i am suddenly so attached to this song which i’ve put on repeat and have been listening to since the last few hours.

i cannot comprehend the reason why i feel like i’m literally living these songs.

listening to these songs, sometimes makes me feel like a teenager, going through one’s first ever heartbreak in life.

but even though i’m here, so far away in life from being a teenager, i find myself savouring these songs.

def leppard – long long way to go: listen to this song here
(you need real player for this)

you held my hand and then you slipped away
and i may never see your face again
so tell me how do to fill the emptiness inside
without love, what is life?

and anyone who knew us both can see
we always were the better part of me
i never wanted to be this free
all this pain, does it go away?

then every time i turn around
and you’re nowhere to be found
i know i got a long, long way to go
before i can say goodbye to you
oh, i got a long, long way i know
before i can say goodbye to all i ever knew
to you, to you

from memory, there is no hiding place
turn on the tv and i see you there
in every crowd there’s always someone with your face
everywhere, trying not to care

then every time i turn around
and you’re nowhere to be found
i know i got a long, long way to go
before i can say goodbye to you
oh, i got a long, long way i know
before i can say goodbye to all i ever knew

to you, i wish you everythin’
and all the best that life can bring
i only hope you think of me sometimes, oh
and even though i feel the pain
i know that i will love again
the time will come, oh, and i’ll move on

i got a long, long way to go
before i can say goodbye to you
oh, i got a long, long way to go, got a long way i know
before i can say goodbye, before i say goodbye
to all i ever knew, to all i ever knew
i got a long, i got a long, long way to go, long way to go
before i can say, before i say, goodbye to you
say goodbye, say goodbye
oh, i got a long, long way i know
before i can say goodbye to all i ever knew
girl, i wish you the best i know, oh and all of the rest, to you
i got a long, long way to go
before i can say goodbye to you

13 Comments on "I never wanted to be this free"

  1. Monty says:

    I know exactly what you’re going through Capri guy, and I went through the same shit, but now feels happy to hear frm Papa “Ki beta wapis aaja” :lol:

  2. Iris says:

    I Believe that iris( the song ) has answers and lines for all my moment …i am going one similar to urs..when everything feels like the movies..you bleed just to knwo ur alive….( i never make sense dont worry ..its not you* grin*)

  3. devesh says:

    [monty] – abhi tu bhi yahan se chala jaayega :cry:

    [iris] – you make sense to me… i know what your saying :P

  4. chini mini says:

    hi! hey whats wrong… u are not suppose to feel like this….. agar aap abhi se dukhi ho jaoge to meri behen aapko dukhi kaise karegi????

  5. Ridhish says:

    Hai meri jaan..bahut senti ho raho tum log yahaan pe…**janne khaaan gayee woohh dinn** ;).

    Monty ko india janne se rokna padde ga…what say devesh…tu sydney se mereko canberra pe pick karta hoa ja..aur monty ki khabar lette hain ;) hehe

  6. devesh says:

    ridhish, if you can achieve this…. i’ll forever be indebted to you yaar… hehehe

  7. Monty says:

    Oye chup tum dono.

  8. Ridhish says:

    Devesh, monty aaj kal bahut style maar raha hai..maybe we should relocate him to sydney so he’s more happy and is willing to stay…what say ?? ;)

  9. Monty says:

    Sydney ho, melbourne ho, ya canberra, aate toh sab Australia mein aur mujhe Australia nahi pasand. Devesh bhaiya bhi humse agree karte hain, so bole toh thoda tough luck ho gaya RIDHISH

    Dhaki chiki Dhaki chiki :razz::razz: LMAO :razz::razz:

  10. Ridhish says:

    lagta hai mera bad luck hi kharab hai :( ;) hehe:shock:

  11. Monty says:

    Baapu, bole toh aaj kal apun ka Good luck bahut sahi chal raha hai, :lol:
    Yeah devesh lagta hain aaj kaam par nahi aaya., kuch toh jhol hai, i hope koi gori ke saath kahi bahar na gaya ho.. Haawwww, bhabhi shouldnt read this ;-) Lolzz

  12. devesh says:

    monty, i only despise this place is because i don’t have genuine friends or some kinda company that i know i’m very comfortable with… i would never dream to leave this place if you were in the same city…

    ridhish, lets do it mate :P

  13. Monty says:

    Awwww, beta jaani, i can so understand what you mean. I somehow havent found really good ppl here myself too, and salla it would be gr8 to be inthe same city, ek kaam kar na, tu bhi bombay aaja, then you and me in bombay :lol:

    Chance par dance marte hain. :roll:

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