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The unknown instant!

Just minutes ago… it all made sense! It was just fine! Everything fell in pristine order, just as she’d known all her life to be… just as everything “worked” out for her!

A plan it was! A plan that always made sense! All predetermined, like everything else that drew up a perfectly functional blueprint in her life. Oh yes there were always the unexpected mishaps. The ones that in the heat of moment tripped her off completely and swayed her from reality. But it never took her long to get back to “the plan”!

If there wasn’t one at that stage, it always came up. Her subconscious was her greatest ally! Eventually, it always came to her rescue, before she could even acknowledge it!

But such was a day – a day which was nothing different than any other day she would’ve been able to have picked up on. A routine. An expectant. Nothing unusual. Nothing unnerving so as to have shaken her whole existence.

But tip-toed, it walked in. The feeling. The assured incense of comfort.

Walking hand in hand with the fear of unknown, it subtly slipped through the unnoticed crack of her doorstep.

And when it arrived, it surged her through a glimpse of insanity of utmost joy. The perennial joy of nirvana.

Within moments the fears that had walked with it, sunk in. The million questions she never even knew existed occurred in a flash of an instant.

She found herself battling, dealing with the surprise of the joy and the uncertainty of the fears at that same very moment.

Something changed that night. Something very unnoticeable in that continuum.

Something completely oblivious of the fragment of the definition of time as an instant.

She complied with natural, conditioned behaviour, and caved in to deal with it “naturally” as a human would.

But what was to come by, would be far greater than an average human was to be able to fathom.

She couldn’t see it just yet.

A miracle, was in the making!

New Horizons :)

So far I’ve done alright, God. I haven’t gossiped, haven’t lost my temper, haven’t been greedy, grumpy, nasty, selfish, or overindulgent. I’m very happy about this. But in a few minutes, Lord, I’m going to get out of bed.

And from then on, I’m going to need a lot more help.

Phew! What a run! Been a long lost time since I’ve updated my blog.

Simple to say that life’s been simply beautiful and I cannot be more grateful :)

Well, as most of you know that I made this “drastic” move to a new city at the first opportunity that fell in my lap. Now I wasn’t really looking, but it just so happened. I guess it was life’s way of asking, “would you like to move on my friend?”

The arsenic rust that I had grown into, I was quite taken aback myself on my decision to move.

What most people don’t know is that I let go of my whole 8 years of life I lived in Sydney – I gave away most everything I ever possessed and had collected over the years.

Surprisingly, what I didn’t realise is how much of my memories, the animosity, the distrust, the anger, the frustration and all that comes along with it, I parted with :)

It wasn’t until quite a few weeks here that it hit me with what I’ve done.

I immersed myself in work. Along with came the “joy” of finding an apartment for myself. I did so in a month and for the first time in my life, made this apartment, a home for myself :)

I’ve never before felt the need to “choose” and be “peculiar” about what I wanna get for the place and stuff – but over the month I spent so much time (oh and of course, don’t forget the moolah) in just setting the place up.

Friends were there to help, but I was quite surprised at my own inclination to do so.

Soon enough my lil sis will be joining me here to spend a few months with me – something I’m truly looking forward to!

But before that, there’s something else much “alluring” that I’m looking forward to… :)

I must add that this change in location, as mere it may sound for a third person, has changed so much within me – my perceptions, my perspectives and from the looks of it, my luck :)

I’ve been letting go more and more of my old ties, making new friends, improving my knowledge, learning new things, cheering for new things in life and pleasantly, looking forward to life each day! Although work keeps me pretty occupied right now… I yearn for this change!




I couldn’t help but pause – one of my recent favourites just started playing on my random playlist – “Far Away” by Nickleback :)

Someone I recently got to know, pointed this song out to me, saying she was thinking about me while listening to it – have drawn a close affinity towards the song since :)

Anyways, I guess I lost my train of thought. I’m gonna cook some pasta, pour some good merlot, sit back, relax and maybe listen to some Bach… recently heard “Pachelbel’s Cannon in D” and I was instantly hooked!

Until next time… cheers to new, lasting beginnings ;)